'Peace in my heart and regret far from my mind'

Within my cancer experience, there have been many blessings. The distractions I have sought, and the encouragement I have received, has supported me a long the way, and particularly through the biggest emotional challenge so far…and with that , I am sad to say, that Steve and I have ended our relationship.

It perhaps won't be a surprise to you, but things have been tough for a long time. The physical and emotional rejection has been the most devastating part of my cancer story……By my final chemo my mind was decided, and Steve and I have since been in a state of ongoing transition.

The LGFB attitude  has truly helped with my confidence throughout this period and it has empowered me to make some  tough decisions.

We planned to share our news with our friends and  loved ones after my treatment and this has afforded us both time to come to terms with it all. I  mourned the loss of the relationship during my chemo treatment and today can comment on the news from a position of strength and optimism.

Cancer is tough on relationships, Steve and I are not the first and won't be the last victims of a cancer break up. There is help out there for couples and people do overcome the cancer relationship curse,  however in my story, it is with confidence that I say that this is the right thing for me!

Cancer changed the dynamics of our relationship, where my needs were thrust to the forefront. It also magnified innate characteristics within me, that has seen me challenge cancer, with strength and determination... just as cancer seems to have exposed and magnified aspects of Steve (in my opinion) that has made it impossible for me to imagine a future with him.

If this cancer experience is to be my practice run…. and should it return and ultimately claim my life… I want my final day's to be lived to the full , with 'peace in my heart and regret far from my mind'.

Steve has found my cancer undoubtably tough. I am truly sorry that he has had to go through it.  Those that know Steve,  know that he is lovely father, good friend and an accomplished business man. I am thankful  of the lovely times we have shared over four and half years and I for certain will be taking away with me some wonderful memories and lasting friendships.

I'm feeling a little 'physically broken' by cancer and bruised by the rejection, but the #LGFB attitude is seeing me through. I wonder what my future holds, however my mind is alert with hopes, dreams, possibilities and I am excited about future well lived x