"...Do your worst, for I will do mine........"

The title of this post is part of a quote from one of my favourite films; The Count of Monte Cristo and is quite fitting as my response to 'the wobble' I had today (13.11.13).

                                                                           
(I'm sure this isn't the original source, as Winston Churchill used a similar quote in one of his war speeches)

The wobble

On 11th November I went to NGH (Northampton General Hospital) for a pre op discussion with Mr D and to sign medical consent.  No new information was shared although Steve heavily questioned Mr D about the delay between surgery and the Chemo treatment. Steve asked Mr D whether he would be satisfied with this delay if it was his wife that we were talking about and  he seemed satisfied by Mr D's insistence that this was the right treatment for me.

I decided to have the pre op tests after the appointment with Mr D and I was given my medical notes to take to the pre op department. Whilst Steve was navigating the way, I was flicking though the notes along the way, only pausing for Steve to take pictures, using his phone , of any  words/sentences that were new to me so I could research later!! Im sure it all looked quite farcical!

I didn't get around to my 'research' for 2 day's and when I did, I was particularly drawn to words in a sentence fom the biopsy results;

"These breast needle core biopsies show lymphatic channels containing ductal carcinoma of micropapillary morphology."

I used the following website to learn what these words meant and my 'wobble' began.

http://www.breast-cancer.ca/type/micropapillary-breast-carcinoma.htm


Mr D was not available the next day and I spoke to Annie (Breast Care Nurse) about what I had found and I told her that I had a 'wobble'. Annie told me that this was only a part of the information needed to work out what is going on and should not be seen in isolation . She explained that more information will be known after surgery and tests....and so be it!

More information will be known two weeks after my surgery .I am also having a CT Scan on 28th November of my chest,abdomen and pelvis. All of this will tell us of the type, the stage and grade of the cancer and inform the treatment pathway.

The full quote

“life is a storm, you’ll bask in the sunlight one moment, be shattered on the rocks the next. What 
makes you a 'man' is what you do when the storm comes. You must look into that storm and shout,

            "Do your worst, for I will do mine!”